this is a blog for me to put things on without thinking or worrying about it too much. organizing my thoughts is useful to me. i am unenthusiastic about the idea of sharing any kind of biography of myself for several reasons such as "i feel weird about it" and "i am not really sure who i am anyway" and "i am constantly trying to make myself as small as possible" and "it is stressful for me to be perceived". no one is going to look at this but i feel weird about it anyway, for example.